| Sunday, November 2nd, 2003 |
| 11:39 pm |
new journal http://www.livejournal.com/users/hushedmeowsit'll be a new start... a step away from the memories this name gave me.. away from all the lies i told myself... i just have to change the style on it when i have more time i'll be updating that one from now on... |
| Friday, October 31st, 2003 |
| 11:29 pm |
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| 10:47 pm |
"When you sleep, where do your fingers go. . . . . "
apparently my little sister had a BIG problem. she called, and now she won't tell me. i have to wait til tomorrow. Screw that. she has her girlfriends over, they're sleepin on the floor. tomorrow... i am bringing myself some food.. i need some energy... Next weeks schedule so i don't forget: Sun 9-3 Mon 9-3 ((nice having two days off)) Thurs 3-10 Fri 1-10 Sat 9-4 is it so much to ask that i wanted to go trick or treating tonight? apparently marc didn't like my away message. and the fact that i blocked him.. HumanityPlague: you're an 18yr old girl, and you're seemingly upset about not going trick-or-treating. Something that you should've shed years ago. |
| Thursday, October 30th, 2003 |
| 11:05 pm |
Well lets see here... yesterday, i was in a dumb mood, i went to the mall after class and got some cordoroy-ish green pants from express and some cute underwear. all in all it was a good time.. went into marshall fields and low and behold, the mall was closing.. the manager guy followed me and my little sister around and asked if we knew where we were going, and where we were parked... he then repeated mall security and escort several times... and wouldn't stop followin us until we reached the food court.. which is on the complete opposite side of the mall.:sigh: that guy has too much time on his hands...after that i went and got a banana split at Big Boy's and then came home.. Lauren sent me some HOTT pics from the party and i resorted to my happy state again. hah i went to my journalism class today thinking i needed to revise my interview some more.. but it was chosen to be sent to the guy at Macomb Daily.. eeek. I hope he doesn't kill me. hah. my teacher is awesome.. I have 7 weeks to work my ass off and raise all my grades... otherwise I am screwed! speakin of raises... I got my first 50 cent raise today. so now i make 7.25. it was nice. i think it's so i don't quit.. who knows... tomorrow i am going to get raped in the ass at work... hopefully i'll get something out of it.. hah. i wish i didn't have to work tomorrow. i actually wanted to go trick or treating.. or to a party... "every living creature dies alone" - roberta sparrow from donnie darko i think i need to go to bed soon. i know they're going to call me in early tomorrow...1-10, sat. 1-10, sun 9-5...when am i going to do my homework.. i am probably going to end up sleepin all day on Sunday.. after work |
| Wednesday, October 29th, 2003 |
| 2:12 pm |
i need to do something to make myself feel pretty
That's why I'm wondering why you had to tell me What's going on in your head? What's wrong? Come around to another time when you don't have to run. Howie Day - She Says i'm living in this fairy tale world...wanting to be noticed by all the wrong people, by all the people who go for the pretty girls... i thought things would be different this time around, i thought that something clicked at the party.. i guess not... i think i am going to buy some cute clothes tonight after school...that always cheers me up.... i wish i wasn't afraid in other news.. the Victoria's Secret Christmas Catalog came in the mail today... so that kinda made me happy.. all the pretty things |
| Tuesday, October 28th, 2003 |
| 10:18 am |
| My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul |
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| goddess420_666 goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Renaissance Princess. | | abusedbisterd gives you 6 yellow strawberry-flavoured gummy worms. | | bobsanonymity gives you 9 teal apple-flavoured gummy bats. | | dissarm gives you 12 pink coconut-flavoured pieces of chewing gum. | | evillevi tricks you! You get a rock. | | nightshadow tricks you! You get a pencil. | | rottingbeauty gives you 9 dark blue orange-flavoured gummies. | | theamber gives you 6 red-orange cola-flavoured pieces of taffy. | | tinasux gives you 14 dark green blueberry-flavoured hard candies. | | wastedemotion gives you 18 brown root beer-flavoured gummies. | | zeostar gives you 13 teal peach-flavoured gummy bears. | | goddess420_666 ends up with 87 pieces of candy, a rock, and a pencil. | | Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern. |
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| Sunday, October 26th, 2003 |
| 6:54 pm |
....and obviously hott
so yeah.. this weekend... Saturday i went to my grandmas house.. and we went shopping for costumes and what-not. my aunt showed up with David--who is too cute for words--and we played and ate m&m's and looked at pictures and i talked to my aunt... as they were leaving, the ghost decorations scared david.. but he screamed "grandma joan. . .i love your scarecrow" as they left. and in the car he told my aunt pam, "i was pretty wild back there, I acted kinda like a porcupine" it was cute. Anywho.. Katherine and Emily's party was at 6... i got there at 5.35... i felt weird... there wasn't many people there.. and i didn't know alot of em. my costume didn't quite fit too well.. the skirt was too long, and the shirt didn't quite fit due to my lack of boobage. hah. so i changed out of that and into my regular clothes. and became "superman" and Malcolm was my triplet, hadn't met him prior to the party, but he seemed really cool. Mandi's costume was awesome! I felt bad for not talking to her, but i was thinkin too much cause someone called me a slut and then i don't know.. it hurt? "Jesus Marley" came and oh baby. hah! it was extremely hot downstairs so i kept goin outside. towards the end when Steve freestyled and Tex and John read, everything was better, and i was enjoyin myself alot more. I didn't really know many people there... but it was nice seeing Lauren, Tex, Steve, Marilyn, Adrienne(even though i don't really know her, her pirate costume was sweet!), Lydia, Christina, both Emily's, Katherine, Paul, John, Jenna, Mandi, Levi. After the party, I helped clean up and me, Katherine, Robyn, Emily and Isabella read Cosmo and talked about boys.. and the party... and "fun" times ;) "it's 1:59 not wait it's 1:00 whats going on??" I'm exhausted.. i have papers to write... I MISS EVERYONE Thank you for making last night extremely wonderful. you are a rockstar and we need to hang out! |
| Friday, October 24th, 2003 |
| 1:04 pm |
I can’t take my mind off of you… This weekend looks promising. Katherines party tomorrow, tonight I have to throw together a costume. Gotta love last minute procrastination. Yes yes!! I’ll post a happier post after this weekend ;) you know what that means… hah They have me scheduled to work – Tue-3-10 Thu-3-10 Fri-1-10 –So I guess I won’t be going out trick-or-treating. DAMN THEM! Sat-1-10 So many nights, legs tangled tight Wrap me up in a dream with you Close up these eyes, try not to cry All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you --Yellowcard I get to go look for a pumpkin after John gets off work… hm.. I am thinkin I should go do laundry so I have some clean clothes.. yes.. that’s probably a good idea. I hate how Ashley screwed up the computer |
| Monday, October 20th, 2003 |
| 11:48 pm |
dude... i miss ms. churchill and mr. cifaldi and ms. weisenbarger... it's weird.. seeing them used to be a part of my daily routine.. now it's gone :( |
| 11:22 pm |
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| 10:47 pm |
lets see.. so i didn't do too well on that math test i had.. just goes to show me that i NEED to study, and not spend every wakin moment at work. lately i've been gettin back into the slew of things...got my hair cut, which was nice because i needed a change...it's still growin on me... not too sure yet next thing on my list is either dyin my hair... gettin a costume for Miss Hollywood's par-tay ...getting a tattoo or gettin around to hangin out with people(which is one of my TOP priorities) heh... and i have to take Lauren Christmas shoppin ( though she can get her gifts early.. cause she needs them) it was nice talking to sarah last night.. got alot of things out in the open, and now i understand the situation alot better i dont get it, the 2 days i had off.... my work called me 7 times! maybe i'm next to get fired cause i didn't answer. hah. that would rock! no more burnin myself... more time to myself.. i might like that. hah hm... maybe i should just go rewrite my paper... |
| 12:22 pm |
damn i hate writing again
I’m not willing to be the toy That gets played with and Thrown back into the corner This is where I sit up and open my eyes Dreams become shattered into darkness Illusions coat retina Playing a game of Hide and seek With my emotions Never knowing who will be there When I turn around Tie-dyed cotton shirts Gold my heart Trapped in spirals I don’t want to be the one you call When you and her are fighting So I can be your last choice On a lonely night Only to be forgotten within the week I’d place you on a pedestal Just so I could fall My expectations are insane I want to be held But only if you mean it I need something real A million unspoken words Never made the distance work I feel like I’m shrinking Curled up in a blanket Dried flowers on nightstand Lurking in shadows I wish the stars never had to go away Everything looks beautiful in the moonlight I remember lying there Feeling so safe… …what happened? |
| Sunday, October 19th, 2003 |
| 3:59 pm |
i missed my sacha.. it was extremely nice to see her ::hugs:: love you! |
| 3:55 pm |
Yesterday was Sweetest Day....Sacha came over to my grandmas which would have been better, had i not been in such a dumb tired-boring mood. I guess with working and walking to school, i get worn down real fast. :sigh: and Hobbs was let go yesterday. ::sigh:: the place is going to turn to shit now. who knows... i'm not going to my mornin class tomorrow. i need to sleep. i want a hair cut...dye job... and a tattoo. yes. soon. i will have that done... hopefully by next weekend :) |
| Friday, October 17th, 2003 |
| 12:41 pm |
what would YOU do for a Klondike bar?
kittens and bunnies can cuddle ;) it's nice haveing someone at work to talk to about boys. hah Sweetest day is tomorrow.. and i'm probably going to be alone again. |
| Wednesday, October 15th, 2003 |
| 4:49 pm |
I'll meet you where the sky touches all my imperfections and glows radiantly, because we all know i can't be perfect, but i can change... if you let me :-) i miss you |
| 6:00 am |
well...rumor has it i won't be spending the night at tex's on saturday. i'm not even attending his par-tay. but it's alright. I just have to figure out something to do instead this weekend. :) You know what's super fun? Walking home in the pouring rain.. 2 miles. oh baby I have a shit load to do. so i better get started on this compare/contrast paper, so that when i get home. i can actually sleep a little bit.. and then who knows. |
| Monday, October 13th, 2003 |
| 10:28 pm |
from that moment on, if i was going somewhere, i was running
Katherine ;-) Katherine: "for a good time call lindsay" Me: heh Me: though if your name is *****.. please resort to miss michigan.. lindsay doesn't give out good times to dirrty people Katherine: hahahahaha hah that was the highlight of my night ;) i miss you |
| 10:08 pm |
I think I've done my fair share of walking today....6 miles.. oh baby.
well things have gotten better... Except for the 6 chapters of Pysch i have my midterm on.. :-\ i don't know how i am going to do... ...while the world lies the sky opens up giving birth to moonlit perfection orgazming into the milky way shooting stars across the nights haze... Katherines happiness makes me smile I miss that girl.... time to get back to crammin for the test... i can't wait til Saturday it's going to rock like none other. still have to figure out where i am sleeping... if i'm gonna crash at his house.. or at my aunts... or grandmas..or elsewhere |
| 12:25 pm |
i always think too much and bottle up emotions
i can't keep doing this why is it that i sit here and waste away. drowning in this overpowering feeling of failure. everywhere i look i see guilt if talent lies in the true artist, and i for one... have no talent..then what's to become of me. i always manage to screw things up.. i guess thats why i like being alone... so i don't cause havoc in other peoples lives... i just don't want to be alone anymore. :sigh: i don't know whats going on. and perhaps i just needed to vent. i think it was last night that i realized how much i've changed recently. not necessarily for the good, but for the worse. I've done things that i don't quite have explanations for. the shoes that needed to be filled, didn't always fit so well. i set up expectations and when i sense failure.. i run i've spent countless hours laying in the park under the stars with nothing to show for it. i go to work with the expectation of perfection and some tranquility, but only confusion pours out. and when i sleep. . . the mere 2 hours that i do . . . i end up missing phone calls. and not returning them. i feel sick yet i can't do anything. the only thing i'm looking forward to is Tex's party this weekend.. and Katherine's next weekend i seriously wish i didn't have any more classes ::sigh:: |
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